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Nepal, 2015

They say in Buddhism there are 108 defilements, or sins, that take you away from reaching a peaceful state. Based on my watching of the TV show Lost, its seems 108 is an important number in Buddhism.

I was up in North Conway this past weekend at a shop that had these cool 108 mala beads out make out of lotus seeds. I bought one and thought about the idea of going through each 108 beads and thinking of the defilements and contemplating how they have been in play in my life. Maybe even think about how to avoid them and ways I can be a better person.

As I understand it, these defilements are the things that lead to pain.

They are often based in desire. I’m not sure I fully subscribe to the idea of giving up all desire as the path to peacefulness and health. It certainly would be a more peaceful way of living, but more like a sense of asceticism. Leaving the world and just existing.

So maybe I’ll start with just kind of contemplate each of these in my life. If other people want to do it—the whole list is below. I don’t think there is a right way or wrong way to do this—more just contemplating for a little bit throughout the day.

1.ostentatiousness

2 grudge

3 gambling

4 ingratitude

5 dipsomania

6 ambition

7 dominance

8 faithlessness

9 manipulation

10.stinginess

11 pessimism

12 hostility

13.abuse

14.debasement

15.sexual lust

16.sarcasm

17.humiliation

18.jealousy

19.gluttony

20.unruliness

21 hurt

22cruelty

23 unkindness

24 obstinacy

25 envy

26 indifference

27 negativity

28 furtiveness

29 sadism

30 enviousness

31 derision

32 falseness

33 high-handedness

34 know-it-all

35 rage

36 aggression

37 rapacity

38 effrontery

39 disrespectfulness

40 hard-heartedness

41 eagerness for power

42 lying

43 insidiousness

44 self-denial

45 inattentiveness

46 contempt

47 wrath

48 haughtiness

49 greed for money

50 seducement

51 vindictiveness

52 insatiability

53 voluptuousness

54. excessiveness

55.censoriousness

56.dissatisfaction

57.egoism

58.ignorance

59.hatred

60.greed

61.impudence

62 imposture

63 cursing

64 imperiousness

65 lecherousness

66. callousness

67. malignancy

68.torment

69.intolerance

70.blasphemy

71 shamelessness

72. irresponsibility

73. obsession

74.prejudice

75.arrogance

76.violent

77.temper

78.garrulity

79.dogmatism

80. presumption

81.intransigence

82. oppression

83. prodigality

84. lack of comprehension

85.obstinacy

86.pride

87.conceitedness

88.delusion

89.quarrelsomeness

90. self-hatred

91 violence

92. vanity

93. hypocrisy

94. stubbornness

95. baseness

96. pretence

97. mercilessness

98. disrespect

99. ridicule

100.masochism

101.tyranny

102.capriciousness

103.deceit

104.anger

105.calculation

106.unyielding

107.desire for fame

108. deception